2008 - The year that was.

Today is the 1^st of Jan in 2009. not just a new day, but a new year as well. Again, I sometimes wonder why people accord it so much importance. The hype over the dawn of a new year is just too much. but, I guess its just a time to let one’s hair down and have some fun. Most people make resolutions as well. Its also that day of the year, when most people do a self introspection, take stock of the just concluded year, feel happy, sad, satisfied or angry about the just concluded year.

2008 was one of the worst years of my life. I am not too excited about the year that just crawled past. It all started off very well. I started the new year with the usual vigor and excitement. I was looking forward to my last few days in the US. I was very much excited by the prospect of heading back home in a few months. The first few months of 2008 were comparatively good. I had my usual dose of trips and traveling. But, there was an unknown something missing. I was just not enjoying them as before. I thought that things might change once I go back home to Bangalore. Things did change, but unfortunately they changed for the worse. i went on a bike trip almost as soon as I landed in INDIA. But, there was something missing.

I did fill in that missing link in my life. Or, so I thought. This lead to more confusion, heart-ache, head-ache, pain, misery, happiness, excitement, love, compassion and etc etc. the brief official relationship was good for the while it lasted. It was interspersed with a wide range of emotions. The range and intensity almost broke me down. After a bitter and painful break-up, life has not changed much. the grind is still on. The resilience is still on. The hunt in still on.

I had fun on the limited number of trips and traveling I went on. I also bought a JEEP. This was a long unfulfilled dream of mine. I am pleased that I did go ahead and buy the JEEP. The number and scale of terrorist attacks did disturb and anger me. On the professional front I was not able to climb up another step in the ladder. This was disappointing. But, the good part is that I started working on a new technology and a new team. The team is just fabulous and so full of energy. The team has helped me to remain in high spirits. Due to the financial slowdown and stock market crash, my net-worth is almost close to zero now. My faith in the concept of GOD has also changed. Earlier I was a non-believer who would occasionally visit places of worship to keep others happy. Now, i have started hating the concept of GOD. I have not hated anything else more in life. I have now stopped being nice to believers as well.

All in all, 2008 was pretty crappy. Being the optimist that I am, I look forward to 2009 now. I hope its better than 2008. I hope and intend to be more adventurous, have more JEEP and bike trips, concentrate better on my profession and most importantly be more pro-active and helpful with charity in the society. Also, I wish that I be more pro-active and helpful in curbing terrorism. I am willing to do whatever is possible by me.

Looking forward to the new year and few more.